Thoughts on Being 22

4:51 PM | Posted by cha_jedidiah

I am proud of my age. Getting old doesn't bother me, what bothers me is not "growing old". Growing (with the help of right click synonyms) can also mean rising, increasing, upward, emergent. For me it is stepping up from my current state... a change from who I was to who I am now and who I want to be. That change can be crucial because it can also mean a change that won't get me on the rise but downhill (so strive for a positive change).

Gladly, I've been on the rise... there were times I've been stunted but I walk on... I can't credit this just on my own... roughly 5 years ago, I made a decision to take that change... a change from my old self to a new one... that change brought about the death of the old me, that change was Jesus.

And I am more than glad to have made that decision. I am imperfect until now and whatever I do I won't be perfect because this is not about what I can do... a song sums up what I mean, Who Am I by Casting Crowns:
"Not because of who I am.
But because what of you've done.
Not because of what I've done.
But because of who you are. "

... There were things I had done that I am not proud of but He lovingly embraced me for who I am. That is why I consider Him as my best friend. Can you imagine that?!? My Lord, Savior, Father, God made me feel that He is my best friend!

But wait there's more!
He also blesses me abundantly with relationships that exemplifies His love. I am grateful to my family and friends for making me feel special and loved. Thank you for sharing this life with me.

At 22... I am happy with where I am now... but "growing" is inevitable... so till my next growing old days!!!

Love ,

Charisse Anne Cueto Fernandez
January 29, 1986
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11:52 AM | Posted by cha_jedidiah

It's fun being a strong person. You feel invincible, like you want to face anything that comes your way.

But you know what sucks being one???

It's when people know that you're strong and they think it's okay to hurt you....

(A text from Karl na di alam kung san ang pinagmulan, pinost ko kasi this is how i feel right now)

What the heck! It's true! It's never gonna be okay! You don't know me too well, so learn a little respect... even just a little bit...

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8:06 PM | Posted by cha_jedidiah

PERO MINSAN

Isang Hapon ng Kadramahan

February 14,2008

Ang hirap lumimot

Lalo na pag tinutukso ka ng mga imahe ng kahapon

Minsan akala mo ok na

Minsan akala mo wala na

Pero minsan, mali ang minsan

Ang gulo…

Pero mabuti narin ang minsan kesa lagi

Minsan napakasarap lunurin ang sarili sa trabaho

Ngunit minsan ayaw ko rin ito

Masarap din kasi ang petiks lang

Magulo ba talaga?

Ganito nalang

Ok lang ang mga panahong may mga “minsan”

Ang mahalaga masaya ako ngayon…

OO, walang biro

Pero oo nga noh, may kalungkutan din pala ang minsan…

Ayan na naman ang minsan…

Ayos lang

Sarap mabuhay!

Yung tipong mapapasigaw na ako sa tuwa at may talon-talon pa

Yung tipong tatambling na ko pero wag nalang

***drama post para ngayong araw ng mga puso… gabing-gabi na andito parin ako sa opisina… kalungkot dahil hindi ako natuloy sa isang masaya sanang selebrasyon… marami pang ganito sa susunod… pero ayos lang… bawi nalang ako minsan… ayan na naman ang Pero Minsan…

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The Bus Ride

8:11 PM | Posted by cha_jedidiah

I spent Christmas at my sister's house in Bicutan... I wasn't able to push through with my plans of spending my holidays in dumaguete... sadness... I was thinking of going to Makati for New Year's Eve together with Imay... but that too didn't work out... another sadness. The fickle minded me decided to go home to Solano to spend my New Year there... so I did a last minute packing.

I usually travel at night so that i can just sleep in the bus for the whole 7-hour trip but I wasn't able to do that too. I was awake the whole time. I spent my time texting, playing pc games and staring outside the bus window. I enjoyed the last one most. It made me notice things along the way.

I saw an isolated house on top of a hill. It was decorated with Christmas lights.
I saw a huge tree that was almost bare with leaves except for a few left on top that gave it so much character.
I saw people who were still awake selling fruit, vegetables, food,firecrackers etc. clad in jackets and sweaters.
I saw vast fields bordered by mountains and I stared at them hard enough hoping for a "creature" to appear.
I was awed when we were passing along Dalton Pass. It was enveloped with fog and the headlights of traveling vehicles was the only thing that shed light in the area.

I didn't feel afraid at all. I marveled with the things I saw. I was quite disappointed though because I can't take out my camera and capture these images. The situation wasn't ideal due to the moving bus and darkness.

All this time, thoughts would conjure in my head, thoughts that brought me a feeling of gladness and sadness.

This New Year for me is a year of independence but come to think I been independent in the past (whether i like it or not) as situations arised.

Just like the bus ride, I felt alone while looking at those wonders.

But just like the bus ride, there's a certain joy to it and a valuable time spent in reflections and appreciation.

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